Mid Life Questions

Now I know the whole idea of a blog is to keep a daily record of whatever it is you want to record, but I took a day off yesterday for health reasons - physical and mental.

On Yahoo today, one of their topics was on, "Is there such a thing as The One, in relationships." I of course had to click through to read the thoroughly inane topic addressed by a female match maker talking about her experiences with straight couples.

And after a cocktail or two, I thought I would comment.

Having been single for the better part of my dating years, I have to admit that there was one time in my life where I thought I had met THE ONE. I'll tell that story another time, but I wanted to note however that the topic comes to light as THE ONE who has more or less haunted my life for the last 10 years (since he dumped me) is now moving (THANK GOD) to another part of the state. I found this out yesterday and while it doesn't really affect me, it kinda did.

So while yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus, yes there does exist THE ONE. I know that I'm being naive and romantic or what -have-you, but I have to tell you, that feeling is a once in a lifetime feeling you don't forget--which sucks at times.

Don't get me wrong, there's a difference between THE ONE and soul mates; I am so blessed with 4 soul mates whom I would never in a lifetime, sleep with-- I couldn't get through this life without them. But they're not that ONE.

How does all this pertain to my header - Mid Life Questions?

I've been doing lot of self examination lately -- career, personal growth, a physical checklist,etc. And in all this, I'm now asking myself that soul searching question of why I even still think about him -- after so many years of not mattering to him? The old adage that actions speak louder than words--or his lack of any actions or thoughts, that I have chosen to so ignore all the while thinking that maybe someday he'd realize that simple friendship with me might be worth something - what is it that I can't just walk away and say, what a colossal waste of time?